Oh hey hello...goodbye

hi punkettes...

It's been a long time coming but I'm here now.

Sorry sorry for not updating.
I guess this is goodbye...

I'll be deleting this blog and will never be active again.
I'll be active in my other blog which is tumblr.
If i find a better reason to be active here again, I might be back once again.

Goodbye blog who has been with me since 2006.

친구야! 미안해, 사랑해

친구야! 미안해, 사랑해.

생일척하해!

It read,

My Friend, I'm Sorry, I Love You.
Happy Birthday.

So Happy 21st Birthday to my bestie, Niza.
You're 21 now, a fully grown adult. A woman.
Not a teen, not a girl. A Woman.

But I totally miss you. I have the others to fill your void, but it's not the same.
If only we can be like what we used to be.
I am trying to accept the fact the he is now your boyfriend. The one you loved.
And you're happy when he is around. That's great.

Since you're 21, and independent. I know you want to try to deal stuff with yourself, so okay I know. But remember I'm not just a hotel that you can check in and out. I hope you're sincere in changing yourself. Anything that really troubles you, you can always call me even if it's 4am in the morning. I swear I won't let the past repeat itself again. I don't want to. You're a mature woman now, so think wisely.

So Happy 21st Birthday.

Yours Truly,
Fyza Yoora

I HATE SUMMER!

hi punkettes...

Im back trying to keep this blog alive.

Like I've said, I've deleted all my hate rants. So it's a normal blog now.

Well, it's Summer once again. Though here in SG, you experience summer all the time.

But I classified SG's weather as 4 season in my own kinda way.

Here's Fyza's way of classifying 4 Season Weather in SG:

Winter (December, January, February) - Rain, Cloudy, Fair

Spring (March, April, May)-Rain in around March & April, but begins to get hot in May.

Summer(June, July,August)-Hot weather in June & July but Rain in August.

Autumn(September,October,November)-A lot of heavy downpour with Less Fair days.

That's my way y'all. Hahaha.

SUMMER is the season where I get sick. Cuz i have a weird body. I get flu in hot weather, not cold. When it get too hot, I'll sneeze and sneeze! Seriously. And now while writing this, I'm sick.

I don't have a fever, but my body felt warm. I need mum's remedy to swear plum juice all over my body again. I need to perspire my body out to drain all the heat! Argh!

Appa, call someone to fix the air-cond asap, please! I swear I won't overuse it! I promise!!!

Oh yeah, Nadia is staying here for days, it's nice to have her back sleeping in my room.

I should turn in now. Look at the time it's 1am.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Hate Post Deleted.

hi ppl..

I've finally taken the liberty to remove my hate rants.
I've decided not to put hate rants anymore.
Thinking about it again, it's pointless.

I was reading my cuzin's blog a while ago, and her words motivates me a lot.
I miss her (my cuzin) a lot. She a year older than me. We used to play a lot when we were young.
I still remember it very well. Like I've said, her words motivates me.

Taken from her blog, it's in Malay so I did a little english translation right below every paragraph:
Ya Allah,
Sesungguhnya perwatakanku keras, maka lunakkanlah watakku & lembutkanlah hatiku buat kedua ibu ayahku...
Rendahkanlah suaraku bagi mereka...
Perindahlah ucapanku di depan mereka...

Dear Allah,
When my sense & behaviour seems harsh, please ease my harshness, soften my heart for my dear parents.
Lower down my tone when I talk to them.
Make my speech sweet as it sounds to them.


Ya Allah,
Berilah mereka balasan yang sebaik-baiknya, atas didikan mereka padaku dan pahala yang besar atas kesayangan yang mereka limpahkan padaku,peliharalah mereka sebagaimana mereka memeliharaku.

Dear Allah.
Give them a lot of good payback to them as for they who educate me. Give them 'pahala' as for they who loved me more than they ever did. Please watch over them as the same as they watch over me.

Ya Allah,
Apa saja gangguan yang telah mereka rasakan atau kesusahan yang mereka deritakan kerana aku, atau hilangnya sesuatu hak mereka kerana perbuatanku, jadikanlah itu semua penyebab susutnya dosa-dosa mereka dan bertambahnya pahala kebaikan mereka dengan perkenan-Mu ya Allah, hanya Engkaulah yang berhak membalas kejahatan dengan kebaikan berlipat ganda.

Dear Allah.
Whatever disturbance or suffering that they felt because of me, or the lost of any rights because of me, make all of this a reason to decrease their sins and also a reason to add 'pahala', dear Allah. Only you who can punish all the wrong with the right multiple times.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin..

My dear cuzin, I hope you don't mind.
Thanks to you, I felt a little bit down a while ago after reading this I guess it's all my fault for giving my parents pain.

I wonder how can I say that everything going to be alright, and not to worry about me.
I guess parents will always be parents, their neverending worrying about their kids.
I think when I became a parent, I finally will realise the meaning of this.
But I didn't forget to cherish them every minute and every second every day.

Anyways, cuzin we should meet someday eventhough you're about 500km away from here.
toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Tumblr Vs Blogger

hi punkettes...

It's been a long long time since I update this blog of mine.

I've got so many things to update but I choose to be lazy instead. Hehehe. Sorry.

But I've established a new blog which is way more easier in Tumblr.
So I'm thinking of whether to delete this blog and continue to stay active in Tumblr or vice versa.

Nisa gave me an idea of having a hate blog and a normal blog.
Meaning I can post all my hate rants here and non-hate one in the other.
Hmm...should I? Hahaha. Still thinking.

Fyi, I'm gonna start school again soon cuz I've screwed up a module. Dang!
Bt nevermind, I'm still optimistic. In fact, repeating isn't that bad.

Come on. Oh well. Looking forward to be in school again. Thank goodness that my bestie is still in the school. I can call her up anytime for a break. Hohoho.

Speaking of bestie, I had a blast playing L4D with her on Xbox 360 in school today.
Awesome! Hahaha. We shall play it again.

In the mean time, I will think about whether to keep this blog or not.
Wee...gonna hang out with GG family tmr. Miss them lots.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Down Goes Another One

hi punkettes...

I just wanna post this song.
I've been playing this lately. I love it so much by McFly. Because of them, my guitar will never be kept in dust.

Did the best that I could
Said I'd die for you and I would
But I drowned all those feelings in the flood

Need to know if you're there
If you're listening to my prayers to my tears
Feel like raindrops through the mud

How was I to know that a year ago I'd need to read between the lines
And every lie and thats why

Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)

Living Fast
Dying young
But I'm living with what you've done
Now I face accusations
I won't run
No

I'm starting to remember things that you said
I'm unravelling what they meant
But the world moves on
You're just another one

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
But you're never there when I turn around

Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one

Whoo

And how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
(Shadow on the ground)
But you're never there when I turn around

'Cause every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
(My dreams are haunted)
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
(Right back where you wanted)
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
(Hey)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one
(Hey)
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another on
Down goes another one
(Down goes another one)
Down goes another one)

that's it, enjoy the song.
luv mcfly fan 2004-present..
Fyza Yoora

I Love My Friends!

GG Family, an awesome family that I've never thought I would have.
The picture was taken from our recent trip to Sengkang for Swimming.
(Sorry Zul, we forgot to take a picture of the 5 of us together. Next time k, but you're still part of the family)

More pictures here

And also to my sisters, 8 years and counting.
I love you girls to eternity!
Picture was taken from our recent trip to East Coast to celebrate Fana bdae.
Yeah, failed surprise party but it was fun! ;)
More picture here.

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS FROM THOSE EXISTS TO NON-EXISTS ONES.
(wait a minute, got non exists ones? Hahaha)

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

bye bye kayla bye bye anika

hi punkettes...

As you all already notice. i've changed my url.
I just want to tarnish kayla and also anika.
Kayla was the nickname i've made during secondary school days.
It brings a lot of memories to it and mostly it is bad. So I just want to throw away those bad memories. And Anika, it seems like no point anymore. I just don't have the feel to uplift that name.

So the name Fyza Yoora was born.
Fyza (pronounce as fee-za) is a short of my real name.
Yoora simply i pick this as it means silk cuz i want my life to be a smooth as silk as possible.

Hopefully this name brings luck. hehehe.

To my girls, If you want to address me in your blog you can use one of the 2.

I want to tarnish my bad memories and past, all of them and create good ones in the future.

Oh well, I need to get a job fast. To all the post I've sent, I didn't hear any single one of their response yet. Grrr....quick la!! Me want money to travel and shop!!

Upcoming outings next week, I can't wait. Gonna go swimming with GG family on Tuesday and then on 5th March, gonna have a picnic with the girls. Weee! Oh yeah, let's play badminton one of the afternoon okay girls and also to my beloved GG family to ya! Hehehe.

So ppl relink me back yeah!

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Summer 07

hi punkettes...

I think I need to write a song cuz I feel so inspired.

12022010

I went back to the place where I will always remember that very day in Summer 07.

Where I first fall in love you...
Where I finally knew what is love with you...
Where I first had a date with you...
Where I feel so warm with you...
Where I sat next to you...

I know I won't forget you even if I found my perfect match.
That very day, I will always remember.

........

When it comes to Valentine's Day, i feel so sucky.
For 8 years, I've been an independent woman.
But then I tell myself, it's okay cuz I know my time will come.

Actually the true tradition of Valentine's Day, is when the girl's give gifts to the guy.

Then when it comes to White Day (March 14th), it's the guy's turn.
When it's my time, I want to celebrate it like that. Hehehehe.

Well then, those lovebirds out there enjoy your day.
And also Happy Lunar New Year!

I guess imma finish my song now called Summer 07. ;)

toodles...cheerio
FyzaYoora

ps: i wanna go swimming!!

Dizzy Mizzy Wizzy

hi punkettes...

Once again, late updates. Hehehe. Sorry.

31st January 2010.

The most hectic day I've ever experienced in my entire life!
I accompanied Fiqah cuz she wants to catch a glimpse of her fave band, Shinee.

Yes, they've arrived in Lion City on 29th January, but we didn't go because I simply can't cuz it's late at night. I know Fiqah is a bit disappointed in me, but decision final. I won't go.

Then on 31st, went to LOT 1 at CCK, for the fan signing. I thought we can actually go up to the fan signing to see them. But we weren't allowed. Well the rule is that we have to buy the album on the spot to gain access to the venue because those album which were sold on that day have a event pass attached to it, but Fiqah already bought the album way before this fan signing happened.

Arrived at Lot 1 around 11am+ and tonnes of fangirls were already there. A lot I tell ya! A LOT!!

The whole mall was in chaos with fangirls screaming and running up and down the mall. Fiqah and I both waited at the food junction near the escalator entrance to the roof garden.

This is what it looks like when we arrived.


And this is what it looks like about an hour later.

FULL HOUSE.

Those who were sitting near the escalator was screaming and mocking the security guards demanding for Shinee. I totally lost respect to them because it's totally rude. It's so obvious that they won't allow you in and why are you waiting there.

I called Nadia (yeah she was there with her friends too) asking where she was, she said she was at the ground level when there's a screen showing the stage there. So Fiqah and I decided to go there about 30mins later after the call.

So this is how big the screen was. Worst, NO AUDIO!!

A lot of people were already there. And soon they arrived, then there goes the ear deafening screams!! Fiqah definitely scream of course. Sorry I didn't, not a huge fan of Shinee though.

Like their songs but not so crazy bout them. While the fan sign was in the process, the kind hearted cameraman zoom in to each of every member's face. There goes the screaming again.

So Fiqah and I just took pictures of Shinee from the screen with our cameras.

Then Fiqah can't get enough of them, so she suggested to wait for them at the exit of the carpark. Like omg! It was hot! Tonnes of fangirls were there. I pity the guards and road marshall because most girls there can't simply co-operate. Mind your safety first please! I feel like I don't want to be part of it anymore but I thought about Fiqah. I am getting dizzy because it was too hot and stuffy. As their van comes out, I managed to see Minho cuz I like him from Dream Team show series. He's such an ace player and tall. But Fiqah couldn't see her fave one who is Jonghyun cuz he was sitting at the back of the van where the windows are closed with curtains. The reason I get to see Minho cuz he was sitting in front, and the windows aren't closed.

And it doesn't stop there, fans chased them along the road for them. I told Fiqah, if she want to chase then go ahead, I'll wait for her because I think it's simply pointless.

I hope this is the final time I will experience this manic situation.

But kudos, for Fiqah she finally get to see them on 2nd February at the airport. She went there by herself. Good. Pass your fancam so I can upload it for ya. K.

Enough about that day.

Now I can finally taste the sweet freedom from school cuz now I can graduate! I've fulfilled all the requirements for graduation!!! Yay me!!

First up, FYP! FYP 1 & 2.

FYP 1 : Hamizah & Me (Supposedly 3 of us since Junior bailed out)
FYP 2: Me, Jannah & John (Supposedly 4 of us since Moo bailed out)

Wait a minute, both of FYP 1 & 2, I've had bailed out members. Whoa! Hahaha!

Next, PP (Professional Profilling)!
Yes, I know I've should have finish it in Year 2 but I give up cuz I can't met my advisor wants.

Yay! Met requirements! Wee.

Lastly, CE Points. Oh yes, all 40 of them collected!

Wohoo!

And all that is left, my grades. Hope I pass it all!!

Now I shall mug for UT3. My first one is this saturday!!!

And lastly, Happy Birthday to my cuzzie, Kak Ili who turn 22 on 1st Feb and also to Kyuhyun oppa from Super Junior who turn 23 (Korean Age) on 3rd Feb.

Happy Birthday!!!

I feel like going for a swim tmr, any takers?! Hahahaha.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

7

hi punkettes..

Finally, my baby (laptop) can breathe well again since I gave it a little upgrade.
Yes, it's running with Windows 7! Yippee! Cool!
I decided to reformat my baby last Friday.
Woke up really early on my free day, went to school with Mynah, bump into Erika along the way, and left baby in the hands off the staff at IT Helpdesk.

After that, Mynah and I had breakfast in KFC. Love the porridge!
Then we wonder around to Novena then Junction 8 before coming back to school.

Baby was done by the time we arrive. Love it!
Met a few ppl in school, cuzin Izan, the Joker Shahril (he loves the the Joker, Batman's enemy) and a couple more of my friends. Waited for Azri to finished sch then 3 of us chill at Mac, eat Flurrys (mine was Strawberry Sauce and Oreo combo). Azri bought his Shampoo for camp and off home.

Back home, installed everything back except that the disadvantage for an 3 year old laptop using a new operating system is that some of the drivers weren't compatible yet, I mean the versions weren't released. Oh well, at least I got it running well. Personalize here and there, organised songs in Itunes (it was hardword, phew!) and voila, it is as good as new!

I want to dye my hair black again but still haven't dye it yet.

I want to go platinum black! All black. Real black. No brown black or soft black.

Really dark dark black.

I've changed the blog song again. An old song from a now in hiatus since god knows when, The Grace featuring the oh so cutie Kyuhyun from Super Junior called Just For One Day.

I want to spent my time with you like we did in Summer 2007, even if it is just for one day.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Walks The Best.

hi punkettes...

Last Monday was the released of O Levels results and my cuzin, Mimi is one of the candidates.

I must say she did well except for maths though. The ultimate one. Which flunk a lot of people. But thank goodness she didn't fail, just a moderate pass of D7. The rest are all 3s and 4s i think.

But at least she is qualified for Poly education and that's important.

I saw this figures over at RD's blog and I must say that,

WE'RE THE BEST BATCH EVER!!!!! WEEE!!
Just look at the highlighted percentage. It went down as soon as 'the best' graduates.

As much as I dread to go to school everytime, I'm glad I am a part of it! =)

As for now, I really don't know what's the changes happening around in that school eventhough I lived like a couple blocks of away. Oh nvm.

Shall we have our little sweet reunion soon provided where most of us are not busy.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

I want a car.

hi punkettes...

(click to enlarge)

I don't know where I got this from, but I'm guessing it's facebook and I don't know whose profile i took. This is like a very very complicated MRT system. It covers everywhere in Singapore. You can get there faster by MRT. Though this is only a fake drawing not a confirm plan, but if it is true, then cool!

But, this doesn't stop me from the desire to own a car in the future.
I want to own a bloody car! So I can take my family and friends for a ride.

The main purpose is for vacationing to Msia of course.

Oh well, I'm still trying to kick my bad habit away. More work out.

My sis, Nadia is really into Kpop more than I do. She knows the latest stories more than I do.

She's getting to surpass me. Hmm. Oh well, the first enthusiasm of just being a fan. =)
When i'm into Kpop for the first time, the enthusiasm was like on top of the scale.
Now after 3 years, the scale is in the middle. Sometimes you're excited, sometimes you just don't bother. Hehehe. But the interest is still there, only the enthusiasm varies.

Oh well sis, keep the interest going. And stay away from my 'men'. ;)

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Bad Habit....CHANGE

hi punkettes...

I really really must stop this bad habit of mine.

Eating junk food at night. It's kinda bothers me. I will work out, then get hungry, then eat. Then my goals to get the abs will gone. But I can't take it. The fridge is like my new found love.

Just a while ago, I ate a small packet of Cheezels, then look into the fridge, there's some mini chocolate bars that Nadia left, then ate a banana. It's not that I don't eat dinner, I ate. Just Fried Kway Teow minus the tonnes of bean sprouts I took out.

Thought of going swimming tmr, but no one to company me. Oh well. Nvm.

Change the block song to Change by Hyunah of 4Minute.
I sometimes condemned her stage performances because she like to be too over when she performed. But today on Music Bank, she proves me wrong. Well Done Hyunah.

Gonna work out to this song in a bit. Oh wait, perhaps maybe after watching 2D1N on KBS World.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

I'm Throwin On My Charles & Keith cuz I don't have Louboutins.

hi punkettes...

While waiting for the other half of my clubbox to finish.

I was youtube-ing and I love these 3 performances.

First up,

Yours truly, Xiah Junsu. =)

Is there any guy in Singapore who is as charismatic as this guy here? Hehehe.
Darn smexy!

Next up, U-know Yunho.
Leader undeniable.


And finally, J.Lo.
She's making a comeback this year. Can't wait!
I'm lovin her new single, Louboutins.
This is her performance from Ellen show, it's the same one as the AMA but better and of course without the fall.

I love the dance break.

Ok now, my download has finished.
Wee. School starts tmr, then after 5 weeks. I'm a free woman baby! Haha!

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

Happy New Year

hi punkettes..

I know I'm a day late, but oh well, Happy New Year! Happy 2010.

A decade has passed since Y2K. Whoa.

Which means, I'm gonna be a year older.

Which means, I'm gonna have a new lifestyle.

Which means, I'm gonna have new year resolution.

But before I come to the resolution, reflection time.

2009.

It's my crucial year as I'm a sunbae (senior in korean) in the school.

The whole world is on my shoulders as I have to deal with 2 FYP and PP at the same time.

I've lost my motivation like million of times.

I've been utterly depressed once.

I've done the unthinkable once.

I fought with my best friend after that okay again.

I've been betrayed.

I went on a date and failed again.

To sum it up, 2009 wasn't a good one for me.

Nevertheless, I'm looking forward to what 2010 will bring me.

So the resolutions. Hmm...

Pretty simple.

1. Find Work

I'm graduating soon, hopefully, then with my cert in hand, I hope to find a decent job that will lighten the burden of my family. I want my dad to stop working and retire happily with mum. It's time for me to take care of them. It hurts my heart to see Dad working with his condition right now. So gotta find work. Dad can help me, he got lots of network, i think. Hehe.

2. Find Boyfriend (it's not an urgency though)

Well, if I get a decent job, which means I will be making my own money right? I'm not gonna be broke to go on dates right? And since I'm turning the full legal age in SG, I'm definitely old enough to handle stuff on my own right? I'm still holding on to first love but it will take a while for me to find a way back into love. Perhaps maybe the reason why I'm still single is maybe because I'm that hard to be loved? Will I ever let go of my first love? Haiz.

3. Be A Good Daughter.

I want to take full responsibility of my parents now. It's time for me to repay back my debt to them. It's my time now.

That's it. Just 3. The main one.

As the year goes along, I'll have more like having a 21st Bdae bash!

that's about it.

toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora

ps: i'm still thinking of changing my blog url.