Bloody Moodswings

hi punkettes...

so ok now, here me complain.
why everyone in this house has bloody moodswings today?
its the only the first day of fasting month, and ppl having moodswings?

After dad came back from work, mum suddenly brings up about the mess in my room.
I just lie down on the floor watching TV. And dad would like me to bring down the posters in my room. Mum threatens that she would tear it up. Haiz. Feeling so fuck up at that moment for a while. Why can't I watch TV peacefully? I only had 1 celeb poster up on my wall. Then mum brings up about bro again and i was like, "here we go again..." I have no choice bt to bring down my celeb poster down before mum tears it down.

i tot i was going to sleep last night after being online. bt nah, i stayed up. Haha. Until 4am, basically watching The Devil. Erika has finished the series earlier than me! How can it be! Haha. Bt i was bz on the 2nd week or else i shld finish it by now. I'm watching the last epi tonight.
Then at 4am, help mum to prepare for sahur and basically i slept at 5.30am.

Shout out to mimi: Hey you! You've made my eyes swells from crying! Haha.

Mimi lent me a korean movie called Once In A Summer and yeah, it made me cry. Yes it was! I'm a sucker when it comes to these kinds of movies. Haiz. Haha. Don't give me these kind of movies again or else my eyes will become swollen. Haha!

This comes out of random. My son boiboi had died cuz I killed him. Haha! He rather be dead than suffer for his life from a disfunctional family. Haha! The End.

toodles...cheerio
Kayla Anika

I Have A Son Name Boiboi.

hi punkettes..

ok today is like my 3rd time going to town within a week.
2 times with mimi and today with Saleha.

we basically went shopping. saleha bought most of her stuff.
first it was a purple addidas shoes, addidas wallet. then purple crumpler bag. haha.
she had the thing for purple today. and its getting into me as well.

but...

i wanna say a very very huge thank you to Saleha for the Crumpler bag you bought for me worth of 100+ bucks!!!! Thanks girl!! Remind me not to go shopping with you again. Haha. Just joking. and today we rock our shades off. Haha!

I slept at 4am yesterday. (i know i shld slp early nowadays). bt i was online talking crap. sorry, can't help it, i was bored. Hehe. and yesterday, i know that i have a son name boiboi. thanks to that irresponsible father, saiful and the crazy mother, safiyah. Haha. boiboi was hit by a car by the mother. and i was the so called part-time mother to take care of boiboi, since both parents heck care about him.

so ok, that was my crap yesterday while talking to saiful. i was bored actually. sorry!

To Ling: Eh! Go to school with me on Monday. We same class again! Yay! Haha!

toodles...cheerio
Kayla Anika

Bz week!

hi punkettes...

damn, i have a very bz week. yeah!
monday - sunday. damn bz that i couldnt even update my blog. Haha!

as the previous post, wednesday was a blast with all my friends in sentosa.
i had a great time. once again, sorry i couldnt stay for the night bbq.

then on thursday, a very tiring day.
i had a very long day.
well, i signed up for this AFA film making workshop in school.
students from la salle n ntu came too.
i was speechless, i mean they were talking about filming,camera stuff, the stuff that i didnt know that much and i really dont know what to say.

they even ask me what am i majoring in. i was like huh? major in what? i have no major in anything. oh well. than we have to break into groups consisting of 3 diff sch in each team. my team consists of yvonne(la salle), kent(la salle) and nicole (ntu).
i must say that kent really look like simon amstell. gd thing he didnt talk like simon. but he always ends a sentence with 'right'. haha.

so thursday is shooting day.
then friday is editting day. i was sick.

i really learnt a lot in this workshop. yes i really do. im inspired to make a short film myself. now that i have my own video camera! yay!
To my girls D100Dgreez: let's make a short film with our script that we made before aye?
Haha.

My team's film was great. cool! bt i like simah's team vid, it was cute! boiboi! hahahaha
my head was getting heavier as i watch the other team's presentation. i dunno why. probably i dun eat that much. or i dun eat well. haiz.

On saturday, i've already promised my cuzin, mimi to go out with her to take her hp yg dh jatuh jamban back. The phone repairing was under my name. So i have to be there to take it back. Unfortunately, the phone cannot be fixed as it was already corrupted. The phone drop inside the toilet bowl already, so corrupted with water. Padan muka! Haha!

The both of us went shopping for a while around orchard. Mostly at far east bt some at topshop.

Hmm, today. Nothing much. Except that i went to a relative's wedding. Then bro came back from Tampines and he had changed the old cable tv set-top box with the digital one. Yippee!! Haha.

Then at 7.30pm, the asian premiere of HSM2. I must say, the storyline was ok. Finally Ryan had stand up for himself against her sister Sharpay! Haha! Favourite part of the movie, hmm, of course the 2 cuties part, I Don't Dance! The part where Gabriella when apart from Troy was a bit teary for me. Haha. I was almost in tears. Truthfully speaking. I'm sucker for those kind of scenes. Hehe.

I guess I going to watch late night movies again.
Oh ya Erika, I can watch KBS!!! Yay!! Haha.

well that's about it for my bz week. 1 more week to go before school's open. summer gonna be over soon. and also puasa gonna arrive soon too.

toodles...cheerio
Kayla Anika

Fun but Tired.

hi punkettes...

I'm tired, sleepy and my body is aching.
But...

I HAD A WHOLE LOTTA FUN!!
Yeah! I had a blast with my friends in sentosa.
I'm gonna miss them so much. Tisk tisk.
Hehe.

Sorry guys I couldn't stay for the BBQ or else I'll be dead.
Bt I had a blast!
Hope to see you guys often in school!!! W35B!

toodles...cheerio
Kayla Anika

My Misery Was Cause By Me

hi punkettes...
the lyrics of a song i wrote today called I Am The One To Blame.

I Am The One To Blame

My eyes are red from excessive crying.
I’m sorry that I’m causing you to be hurt all the time.
I finally realized that now I am wrong.
I wish you can give one chance for me to prove.

All I have to do is not to be afraid.
But I have to be true to my heart.
And I’m sure everything will be fine.
In order to be safe, I have to save myself.

I am in the wrong side of life all along.
I am so stubborn for not following your guidance.
I am so stupid to realise that you were right.
I have to blame it all to myself, not to you.

Give me time to mend myself back together.
I’m shattered and weak at the moment.
Once again, I want to apologise my wrong doings.
Because, I Love You.

I suffered all my life all because of me.
I cause my own misery.
I cause my own life to be shattered
What have I’ve done?

I am the one to blame.


Sorry mum. I've realised that I'm wrong. Sorry.


Kayla Anika

Heartbreaking

so here's the story:

I must say is the saddest day of my life.
Why?

Today is a special day but someone just make my heart really really hurts.

This is what I have to say:

Mum,
Today is meant to be a special day for you. Cuz it is your birthday.
But now you have hurt the feelings of your son and of course your daughter.
Just because we didn’t wish you earlier today, that doesn’t mean that we didn’t care.
Do you know that we plan to buy a cake for you and celebrate it with you?
Since Aunt had bought a cake for you, so it is best to celebrate it using that cake.
But you seem never to appreciate it, when you said that, “Why must there be a cake then you 2 want to wish me?”

Those words really hurts us both. Do you know what is the meaning of celebration?
Have you ever wish us Happy Birthday on our bdae? I think never. Not ever. But we never complain. Cuz we both know that you know it is our bdae. So stop being sensitive!

Why are you such a complainer? We both don’t know what to say. What do you actually want? We try to make you happy.

After mum said those harsh words, I can see that bro is really upset. It is unusual that bro lock himself in the room after work. I can see that he is upset. I try to hold back my tears, but I just couldn’t help it. I think she can see that my eyes started to get teary. Cuz it is really hurtful.

Now I look at the present that bro and I bought, I don’t feel like giving it to her. I’m afraid that she won’t accept it. Bro and I bought a phone for mum, but I’m afraid that she doesn’t want to use it. We bought it for her to use, so that we both can contact her easily whenever she wants to go out. I just don’t know mum, I just don’t know whether to give it to you or not. I’m afraid of the outcome.

Ok. Fine. Now. I try not to take it too hard. But I’m upset.

I wanna say thank you dad, for cheering us up. Family dinner was awfully quiet today. So, thank you dad.

Toodles..cheerio
Kayla Anika

I Pass!

hi punkettes...

im glad that i pass all my modules....esp science!!yay!!
i might be happy now, bt deep inside, i am upset about something. I write in here later...
in the meantime here are my grades:

A101
Basic Sciences I
B 3.0

G101
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving I
B+ 3.5

A111
Computing & Mathematical Methods I
C+ 2.5

G105
Enterprise Skills I
C+ 2.5

G103
Introduction to Communication Practice
B 3.0

overall: 2.9

.......
i'll post my heartbreaking story for today later....