Facebook Status : Fiza Kayla still have no regrets of her sudden withdrawal, she's not a quitter and still will pursue her life-long dreams
Yes, now here I am, at HOME, updating this blog while I know, some of you might guess it, I should be in line queuing up for the AUDITIONS. I guess my senses are right, I shouldn't have join this competition in the first place, because I've received so many hindrance along the way.
First hindrance, Schedule Clash.
Second hindrance, my voice needs more training.
Third hindrance, the response of me joining the competition is not overwhelming.
Fifth hindrance, the family.
When I first told Dad, "Don't Be Ridiculous"
When I first told Bro, "You?! Singapore Idol? Don't try to be funny,"
When I first told Mum, "Go on and waster your time lining up for that Auditions," plus more naggings.
Mum's nagging yesterday made me extremely upset and felt like it was useless to argue with her. Why everytime I wanted to do something, she doesn't seem to support me? Why? Why? I need at least words of encouragement not naggings!! If you don't allow it, tell it to me properly, don't nag, I just want reasons why I can't do this. With that, I have answers, not naggings with indirect sacarsm. This is totally bullshit i tell ya! Because I respected you so much, I decided not to go because of you, I bet you didn't notice it, I think you don't even notice my obvious tears OR you notice it but you just don't care.
But though, I'm not going to the Auditions, that doesn't mean I pushing my dreams aside. NO BLOODY WAY!!! You guys know me, I'm not a quitter. I hate giving up. Maybe god gave me those hindrance for me to pursue my dreams in another way. I still have my other life-long goals to achieve. That's why I have no regrets.
"Only you can ruin and make your dreams" - Jerome (thank you man!)
Oh I wanna thank the 'Happy Pill' for cheering me up yesterday and also thank you for that Purple Coke McDonalds cup!
Anyways, Birthday wish!
Happy 20th Birthday to the guy who sat behind me in class, pulled my hair, copies my math homework, my english coach in secondary school, A.Rasyid! All the best in your future endeavours!
And also Happy 20th to ex-boifee, Daen on 4th June.
toodles...cheerio
Kayla Anika
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