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hi ppl..

I've finally taken the liberty to remove my hate rants.
I've decided not to put hate rants anymore.
Thinking about it again, it's pointless.

I was reading my cuzin's blog a while ago, and her words motivates me a lot.
I miss her (my cuzin) a lot. She a year older than me. We used to play a lot when we were young.
I still remember it very well. Like I've said, her words motivates me.

Taken from her blog, it's in Malay so I did a little english translation right below every paragraph:
Ya Allah,
Sesungguhnya perwatakanku keras, maka lunakkanlah watakku & lembutkanlah hatiku buat kedua ibu ayahku...
Rendahkanlah suaraku bagi mereka...
Perindahlah ucapanku di depan mereka...

Dear Allah,
When my sense & behaviour seems harsh, please ease my harshness, soften my heart for my dear parents.
Lower down my tone when I talk to them.
Make my speech sweet as it sounds to them.


Ya Allah,
Berilah mereka balasan yang sebaik-baiknya, atas didikan mereka padaku dan pahala yang besar atas kesayangan yang mereka limpahkan padaku,peliharalah mereka sebagaimana mereka memeliharaku.

Dear Allah.
Give them a lot of good payback to them as for they who educate me. Give them 'pahala' as for they who loved me more than they ever did. Please watch over them as the same as they watch over me.

Ya Allah,
Apa saja gangguan yang telah mereka rasakan atau kesusahan yang mereka deritakan kerana aku, atau hilangnya sesuatu hak mereka kerana perbuatanku, jadikanlah itu semua penyebab susutnya dosa-dosa mereka dan bertambahnya pahala kebaikan mereka dengan perkenan-Mu ya Allah, hanya Engkaulah yang berhak membalas kejahatan dengan kebaikan berlipat ganda.

Dear Allah.
Whatever disturbance or suffering that they felt because of me, or the lost of any rights because of me, make all of this a reason to decrease their sins and also a reason to add 'pahala', dear Allah. Only you who can punish all the wrong with the right multiple times.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin..

My dear cuzin, I hope you don't mind.
Thanks to you, I felt a little bit down a while ago after reading this I guess it's all my fault for giving my parents pain.

I wonder how can I say that everything going to be alright, and not to worry about me.
I guess parents will always be parents, their neverending worrying about their kids.
I think when I became a parent, I finally will realise the meaning of this.
But I didn't forget to cherish them every minute and every second every day.

Anyways, cuzin we should meet someday eventhough you're about 500km away from here.
toodles...cheerio
Fyza Yoora